a blog. is simply a tool to express myself.
a blog. does not have feelings.
it is a none living thing..

no words could describe the despair i feel now.
none.
the heartbreak of losing the competition, the heart break of not able to do my part for the team...
the guilt. if they lose.
with me. victory is confirmed. yet if they lose this year. it will all be my fault.
i left. i turned my back on the team.
no longer belonging to the huge family i belonged to, striving for greater heights.
but forget i shall not.
the nurturing, the scolding, everything.

no one reads what i write, no one cares what i write.
but still. i wish to extend my regards. to them. where i once belonged, where i once shone as being the potential future key member. leading the team on. but no. not only did i lose all positions, because i was leaving, i lost the trust of the coach, the respect of the coach. and since then. he had lost mine.

now that i look back, i was selfish, and so was he. and i tink. he still should have my respect, for having nurtured me, for giving me the opportunity to succeed. it was me. who wanted my personal desires, that he wasted time developing a person he cant use.

yet, i belong to where i belong. tis post is dedicated to hciarc. where i once felt at home.
to my fellow friends. i wish u luck.
do me proud. do the school proud.